I've been really struggling with The Secret Commonwealth. Not to say that it's in any way badly written, or that the story doesn't feel connected to the narrative of His Dark Materials.
The problem is time. I first read His Dark Materials when I was about 11 or 12, the same age as Lyra, and there probably isn't a book that has left a deeper impression upon me than that of The Amber Spyglass. Now I find myself returning to Pullman's world in my early 20's, again just the same age as Lyra is. But this time, it doesn't feel the same. Every page I read makes me feel further and further away from the memories I have of this place, making me doubt myself and what it meant to me. The world is the same, if anything it's even more richly explored than it had been. The wonderful characters are no different either. Sure Lyra and Pan have evolved, but the varied cast of supporting figures are as believable and unique as ever.
I think what I'm getting to here, is that the only thing that's really changed: is me.
I want to read on, I want to see Pan and Lyra reconcile, I want to see if Will returns, I want to learn more about this world I loved so much as a child. But, Lyra is different. And I relate to all of her, in the worst possible ways.
I can't bear to see how much that character has changed, and how much it validates the emptiness of adulthood. I'd love to say that Pullman hasn't developed Lyra, how he hasn't brought anything new to the table. But he has, and it's too fucking close to home.
At least Lila is enjoying it lol
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